Diary of a Deauxp Black Artist #2
True Life: I want to burn all of my paintings.
Alright alright, that's a little extreme, but I'm an artist and I'm sensitive about my sh*t. As of late, I've been having a hard time selling my original art and as a result my belief in my abilities is waning. I feel my work is so bad, I might as well just throw it away. It's become such a thorn in my side that I've pretty much stopped painting all together because why paint if no one is going to purchase?
Aha! "Why?" Is the question I need to ask myself.
Why do I create?
Why would I rather give up than keep trying?
What haven't I already thrown in the towel?
I can't quite answer all of these at the moment, but I do know I set out to create art that could uplift and empower people of color and I can't just stop because I'm in my feelings.
This season of self doubt will pass, I'm sure of it. I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel so I'm hanging in there; doing my best to focus on my mission.
What do you do when you're feeling defeated or just plain down on yourself/ your abilities/ your work?